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I am totally like curiously cat in person! 

Always like to try new thing special at someone's edge!

I did all my life.. Should I change if someone get hurt and so do I? But never can't.. Perhaps will touch the same area twice, but no more than three time! 

The lesson already learned why go over and over with same old thing? 

Cat will find another new thing to try.. That's cat!

回歸

那一簞食，一瓢飲，的歳月，似乎離我們好遠，好遠!我們用瓦斯爐燒菜，好似火候不夠，印象中，生火煮飯，是非常艱苦!灶一上火，不用三分鐘，菜就上桌，綐是先趁熱吃，灶上還燉著主食呢! 

That's why I always want back to nutural, the pandora box is not open yet, or you never know what's pandora box for?

I can throw out my iPhone, IPad and no Facebook, no gmail, no TV even no cold play.

At night, if I can't sleep. Listen the frog and criickle fight... Or count the stars on the sky...

At night, when sun rise from the horizon

And bright force you had to open eyes...

Doing what? Eat? Work? Walk? Play? Eat? 発呆，eat, shower then sun set... Ready to bed...

Seems is boring life to have.. But so simple.. No need surf around human social tricky game.. And no need follow the rules to live on, no need kiss someone ass..but one thing will really bother me without power? How can play myself without no power? The thing without power feel like plastic.. No fun..,

After life

Please don't bury me to the ground, underground... 

I am allergy all the grass and the species from the ground..

Spread me to the ocean.. I belong to them..

Spread me to the mountain, finally I over on top!

My my dragon baby

My my dragon baby, you are girl or boy its doesn't matter...because you are already out from my body..
My heart is panting and hurting because it's the only way to do... Can you forgive me??
I know you must be mad... But forgive me... I can't love you...

The judgement

March 4, 2012, I got stuck with homeland security office in the airport..why? I am confused but they knew... Seems they got a good reason to ask me the questions, but they didn't!!! Just checking and checking and stare at me with the questions I never never and ever want to be recall from my deepest memories!
Ok, I made mistakes and I did paid my punishment for it and until now the suffer it!!
They got a right to do whatever they want to do as I am not a citizen in US!
But all the end, it's the judgement look and said, it's all my fault so thats why I got stuck for a while... The end I had to admitted my fault in my past life to feeling I am so sorry to course them too much work to let me go.....???
That's insult with that stereo judgement upset me after I got back...,
The one hide in my deep deep deep heart emotion came out again.,,
I think, what should I care??? And am I killing the people? Am I did the dangerous issue to other at all? I knew the reasons, I am do regret I never fight with it when that happened because the moral function told me that, even you just touch on the corner but your fault is all your fault... No question just deal with it and suffer it... So I never fight, even the evidence to me it's not look good at all...
I am not a fighter, but after it? They train me to become...now I don't feel bad to people I done the mistakes but I paid my lesson, the record is there bit why should I be bother and bother?
I remember they look... Yet? I might kill my self and go to hell someday before them... I can't be a Angel, but my spirit will surf around those people who were "judgement" me...
I won't cause they bad happening in their life.. If I catch them do something bad and worst then me... I swear I won't let them get a good night sleep at all... Yet, I don't know their name, but some of I know... Wait and see...
No matter there is one God or no God ..I want to pay my life to revenge!

Big Island-zipline ride

The trip to Big Island suppose to be a romantic plus adventure trip with friend in Oahu!!
Well, he cancel the trip due to personal issue occurred, I was not happy and feel the trip going to be suck suck suck without any plan in my head and without any clue what's the "fun" in Hilo Big island!
So I thought, yet he can't make it, my heart is sort of broken too on my first night in Hilo! I was happy I paid $30 to changed my return ticket back to Oahu? Until I booked the tour package in Hilo!! I got my most amazing zipline ride in Akaka Fall!!
Yup, can I screaming loud and more loud!!! Totally awesome and fun rides!!!
I know it is not cheap to do so, but its worthy to did it after I saw the water fall beyond on my feet... on the last ride!!
Chicken chicken on the beginning... I was thinking should go forward step?? If I did then there is no return back as I did my last 5 rides before?? Because this one is massive and long... 120 seconds ride.. There was 45 seconds I thought I got stuck in between??? And I just let go my hands.. What comes around and what get around.. Let it be!!! And open my legs totally stuck on the air for 5 seconds after the spooky feeling fade away...I scream it loud I want do it again I want come back just because that!!!
And I am proud of my self... on my third line ride I was thinking to gave it up!! And on fourth line ride I screamed holy cow!!! But feel good!! And fifth ride, hard to move my step toward to the end.. But once on the air yet it's fun fun fun!!! The sixth ride, the guys cross the fingers and hope this Asian chick... won't chicken out for it!!! Otherwise they are going to do more work drive me back to the center alone not with group!!!
Then I did it!!! They gave me high five and said, I am the first Asian tourist who did that zipline ride!!! Hell yes, I did it!!! Now I turn on my camera and look the photos over and over... Yes, he didn't know how to run my camera well... So I didn't get the good shoot!! But that memory keep buzz on my head and over and over!!